Stuff people don't know about me

Let me start off by saying this...
Where I am now in my life cannot be contributed to anyone other than myself and all aspects of myself- my guides , the universe, ect.

So I decided to visit my Grandma ...

smh

Here's the thing... growing up... I didn't really have anyone.  I was the child who experienced severe neglect-- sexual, verbal, emotional, and physical abuse.  The child that never knew love.

For a long time this had made me a prey for many predators especially at such a young age.
I was the one at 14 who had a 25yr old bf that my mother accepted.

Thankfully I grew up around my male cousins who were all older than me so I had street smarts and knew how to protect myself physically by the time I was a teenager because there's no telling how things would have gone otherwise.

Long story short because you can just buy my autobiography if you want the whole story...
My father molested me at 4yrs old which I repressed due to trauma until I began healing myself in 2009.  So most of my life I never even realized it had happened.  I've done this with other things as a child which I'm certain saved my sanity.  He got out of prison when I was 15 and my mom decided we should be a family again... not getting into that story...

So after I recovered these memories... I confronted him and of course like most pedophiles, he denied it... said someone must have implanted these ideas in my mind... This along with all the other foul things he'd done since Id known him gave me the strength to kick him out of my life completely.  This started a new cycle of deliverance and continuous cycles of me getting to the point of not dealing with any abuse from anyone in my life... my mother included.

The story I'm trying to get to is... I get to my grandmother's house... and she feels I need to have some sort of conversation with my father... smh

Mind you... I have not seen her since I left SC in 2010.  After all that I've been through in my life, you'd think she'd just be happy to be a part of it rather than trying to initiate drama.

You're going to need to read the autobiography for this one... sometimes I wonder if people knew it was going to come out and knew how famous I'm going to be one day... which they would if they studied the sciences I've studied and met the people I've met that have confirmed the same thing over and over... I wonder if they would've acted different... maybe put on a show ... maybe their best dress ... for the world.